All is Well in the Mind of God

I find myself at a crossroads. Internally I observe more peace being cultivated, while externally I look out and see the world in chaos. Admittedly, majority of my external reality is actually quite peaceful, inspiring, and aligned with my internal landscape. & yet when I come online or connect with community, it seems the chaos is highlighted and resurfaced in my awareness.

Part of me wants to dive in head first and fight for justice and Life. While another part of me wants to focus on the peace I feel and see and continue pouring my attention into that.

I spent years going down dark rabbit holes, being at war with the evil, and attempting to wake people up. I can reflect back on that and see it made me feel internally quite chaotic and my external reality was continuously being bombarded with increased tension and conflict. 

With the understanding that where our attention goes our energy flows and that the corruptive force often times hijacks your awareness in order to harvest the energy and to feed their matrix; I no longer wish to feed any system, matrix, or construct that I do not align with. I would prefer to direct my attention and awareness in the direction I would like to go.

A brief analogy: if a white water rafting guide tells his entire raft of people “do not hit that rock over there” and everyone looks at the rock, guess what happens…. They head straight for the rock. If the guide instead places everyone’s attention on where they do wish to go, by ignoring the rock they move in a different direction.

Where you aim, you shoot. I do not wish to find myself in chaos, division, or ruins. I would much prefer to focus my attention on the new systems we wish to create.

Simultaneously I feel a deep warrior spirit within me, who has never backed down from a fight and would be more than willing to fight for a just cause. What is a more worthy cause than a fight for truth, justice, and Life itself? 

If the ancient mystics were right and we are living in a realm where we create every aspect of our reality, that we are in a dream and the dreamer of the dream. Then we must ask, does the corrupt force want our attention on evil in order to continue creating evil as a collective? Is this all a test within the dream to pull my awareness and being into a state of chaos in order to prevent deeper awakening? Is the real key to not energetically engage or give your awareness to these experiences outside of self?

It seems this game of life is about finding balance. At times experiencing extremes and yet always coming back to balance. I’ve experienced the complete darkness of being down the hole, looking evil in the face, and being at war with it. Trying to demolish this found evil. I now find myself near the opposite extreme, not at war with it, but actually quite at peace while knowing of its existence. 

What is the balance to this specific situation? Is balance to be aware of the evil, to know it’s there, to observe it, and yet not energetically give our energy to it? Is balance about integrating this darkness into the collective by observing it and actually embracing it with love rather than war? While maintaining a healthy boundary? The equivalent of shadow work internally when seeking to integrate our inner shadow? It would seem so since reality is fractals and everything on one level can be found on another level. 

I have absolutely no desire or need to disassociate from reality and pretend like evil doesn’t exist in this realm. But in this moment I also don’t have the desire to fight it and be at war with it. 

Concerns: 

Doing nothing and sitting idly by while the corrupt forces take deeper control of finances, tech, and the planet at large. 
Or going to war with a system in a system that seems to be reflecting clearly that war breeds more war.

Faith: 

In this game of life the key is to not allow your external perception to be pulled out by chaos. By not giving your awareness you quite literally connect into a different experience of reality. If all frequencies exist simultaneously and no frequency can be destroyed, then will the dark forces always exist on some level and the key isn’t to destroy them and be stuck at their level but actually transcend their level all together? Tapping into a version of reality where it doesn’t exist. Not transcendence as in leaving this Earth, but simply aligning with a higher version of Earth.

For me this isn’t actually a theory. I have been blessed with the gift of vision to a reality where this is already the case. I have had a real experience where my external reality was completely different than the one we find ourselves in now. A reality where every being around me for as far as I could see was fully in their heart and expressing love and acceptance for every other being. In this experience the collective consciousness was more realized within me and I could tune into everyone’s thoughts just by looking at them. When tuning into their thoughts their mind was filled with only loving thoughts. This went on for hours and was quite literally the most loving experience I have yet to encounter. As I was completely centered in myself, fully surrendered and in acceptance, deeply connected to my body, movement, and breath, I looked around me and was quite confident the entire species had just shifted into a higher reality. 

Why did this happen to me?

Did I experience this to know what we are fighting for? 

Or

Did I experience this to know the reality we seek already exists in this moment and the key is to shift my energetic state to mirror that version of reality?

If the theory of infinite realities is truth. Then it’s not about changing this external reality, but rather changing my internal state to match the external reality I desire to align with. If this is true then everything else is a trap to keep you in lower realms.

Even if you don’t resonate with that theory of reality, one must still question and contemplate if fighting evil is the path to shifting this reality we find ourself in. Externally I have been shown darkness can be shifted through love, and yet paradoxically I have also witnessed darkness shift its willingness to fight, destroy, and control by being met with a stronger force willing to fight back. 

Although this is true, the chaos stopping chaos is quite scarce in my experiences of Life so far. Often times when I meet someone else’s rudeness, disrespect, darkness, with the same energy, it just increases the darkness the person is expressing and ultimately drags me down to their level. 

I share these personal experiences I’ve seen in my life under the basis that everything is a fractal, this I am sure. So if this is how the energy of love and chaos cause chaos to react, it’s worth making note of.

I can look to the sky and stare at the chemtrails angry and frustrated, attempting to figure out how to stop it, or I can observe the hawks glide effortlessly in the wind amazed at the beauty around me. 

Which is the way forward to a heavenly reality of peace and beauty?